Hey Yall

Hi,

This is Dave from the block (haha. The Syracuse Utah block ;) ) I want y'all to know how Utah is treatin' me. I am going to a Single Adults dance tonight at the Hogle Zoo (a big zoo in Utah). I'm way excited about that. Next week my friend Paul is going to hook me up on a double date with the sister of this chick he's dating. She's 20. She seems real cool. My job is going well, and I'm makin' bank so that's all that really matters. I think I'm going to get a second job for just a month or two to make a couple of extra g's for an ipod and possibly a car in Hawaii! Yipee.

I don't know who reads this so would you please respond to this if you read it. Just write a short little reply. Even if you don't have a blogspot account. I just want to see who you all are out there. Also, if anyone knows how to put a hit counter on my site I'd be grateful to learn. Anyway, I'm out for the day guys. Have fun.

-Dave

A Good Day...The Last Day?

My father was released from Huntsman Cancer Institute today. There is nothing more they can do for him. He is bleeding inside his stomach and intestines and will probably die within a day or two. He is still laying in the car and cannot move, even to get up. His eyes are yellow and the size of golf balls. Soon, I will have to lift him out of the car with 3 or so other men and bring him to his bed. He will probably not get out of that bed again.

Today, he got to go to the Ice Cream Shop as his final request. He demanded to walk in, order his ice cream, and eat it until the last drop. Then he had to lay down on the bench. I am so glad he got to do what he wanted today.

I guess this really makes me wonder about life, you know. What does life mean? What do we get out of it? What do I want when I die? These are very serious questions. It is hard to see such a good man go! I don't even deserve to kiss the ground he's walked on. He built this house that I am sitting in now single handedly. Well, double handedly. I will miss him so much guys. Have a great day.

-Dave

My October Visit

I might be coming out to Hawaii for Haloween. Any guys who live off campus that would like to have a room mate for a couple of days, let me know. We'll have a great time! ;)

Breaking Up Is Hard to Do

I shed many tears today: tears of pain, tears of loss. As I took down her picture I remembered all the good times we had. As the tape ripped off the wall I felt my heart ripping out of my rib cage. Water suddenly began to fill my eyes, and then a drop hit the desk. I looked down and the site of the one solitary drop filled me with sadness. It was over. Five months of bliss was over.

I didn't know what to do but cry more. I took a walk and looked at the mountains. That made me cry. I sang a song. That made me cry. I took off her bracelet and put it in my car. That bracelet must have weighed a thousand pounds.

It took me 5 minutes to block her from my instant messenger. The button was right there but I could not bring myself to push it. Everybody's sleeping now, but not me. I am wide awake. How can I forget about this?

Nevertheless, I know that I did the right thing. This is what I need to do to be happy. To the one who was once my own, I bid you a final "adieu" and goodbye. May we meet again at a future time. I love you. Goodbye.

-Dave

Another Day, Another 50 cents

I am working again today. I have 166 days until I return to Hawaii (if I return that is). Things are pretty peachy here right now. My step dad started chemo (or however you spell it) yesterday, and he is doing pretty well. It actually seems like he is doing better now.

Today I woke up at 4:53 AM. It is a strange feeling to wake up 7 minutes before your alarm, only to go to the bathroom, lay down, and wake up again to your alarm. When I hit the snooze button on my first alarm I don't think I've ever been happier. That extra 5 mins of sleep must have meant a lot to me.

Another buddy of mine from Hawaii is leaving to Idaho in January. Why don't people stay out in Hawaii? Are they crazy? Well, I understand. It is kinda far away and you can get sick of it. Oh well. Where I go in January is where I'll stay until I'm dead or graduated ;)

By the way, if you don't excercise right now, you should start. 45 minutes of aerobic excercise per day can help you live a longer healthier life. Plus you'll lose weight and be a better lover. It's documented! Anyway, let me know if you have any interesting excercise stories to tell me.

-Daviono

4 Seconds of Morning

Did you know that if your life was a day, every day would be 4 seconds?
4 seconds.
When you go to bed you are counting to four and when the day is over, you are dead.
A month is over a minute, and in the time it takes to get a college education, you've just spent an hour.
It's 7 o'clock in the morning for us and it's time to wake up. We can wait till 8 or 9 or even 10 to start or we can start now.
Some of us will have to go to sleep in the afternoon.
Some of us may not even get to eat lunch.
Remember that in the morning your mind is always clear. You can reason clearly and determine what it is you need to do during the day.
Morning, also, can be the sweetest time of day, when nature is just waking up and the morning dew lightly soaks the grass. I'm excercising now, and I'm doing it outside.

I love this morning. I think it is better than any other before it. Can you feel the sunshine? Are you awake?

Thanks Everyone

Thank you to everyone who's been calling me and writing me. I really appreciate your support. But, I think I just need to think this one over in my own head for a while. I don't want to get to hasty about anything. You guys are really awesome and I want you to know that I appreciate you. You know who you are. Anywayz, have a great day.

-Dave

Cancer

Yesterday my step dad was diagnosed with Cancer. He is only 58 years old. He is the one who brought our family out of poverty and helped us come together. He single handedly built the house we live in today. He has been the shining light for me and so many others. Now, they say he may only have 2 weeks to live.

Life is very interesting, you know. It can be so sweet at times and SO bitter at others. Today I realized that I too am a mortal. I too will to. You, too, will die. We all die. Death doesn't seem real until it hits your home. When you realize that someone you love is or will be gone, it hits you like a brick. Why would God take someone so good?

But we all have to go sometime. So, what are we going to do with our lives? Are we going to be a shining light for others, or are we going to be self centered and focus only on our own needs? What is most important? Family. F-A-M-I-L-Y. When everyone else has gone their own way, family will always be there to comfort us when we need comfort. They will always be there to lend us a helping hand. And it is our family that we love. Whether or not we know it.

Please, people, do your best to live your lives the way you want to be remembered. Perhaps I should clarify that. Remember that someday you will be nothing more than a memory. And memories can be had for good or for bad. So be a good memory. Create good memories. Live good lives and give back.

Thanks for listening.

-Dave

Picture

How do I get a picture of me up for my profile?

Only Time

Today, I feel better. It's been 4 days since I spoke to my "loved one" and I'm beginning to love it. Not true love, but learned love. The love you gain because there is no other alternative. Time really does have the power to change things. This is a curse and a blessing depending on how we use it. It feels more normal to me now not to talk to her, but I kinda miss it. Yesterday when I talked to another girl on the phone for 2 hours I realized what me and Her have been missing. I won't elaborate here but there are definately things missing.

Anyway, what's important? Happiness is important. Setting and reaching goals are important. Having fun is important and I would argue that nothing else matters. Only 25 more weeks! 25 weeks. Gosh, that's a long time. But not too long. I've been home for 11 weeks and away from my girl for 2 weeks, so it's all relative. Day by day by day I guess. Which reminds me of Meet the Parents!

"...Lord, may we love thee more deeply, serve thee more sweetly...day by day by day, amen." -Gregory "Gaylord" Focker.

Hahaha, don't get me started.

For any of you that feel like you can't make it to the next day, take comfort in the fact that you can. I am doing it. If I can do it you can do it too. And I love you. Seriously. Even if I mistreated you. Even if you thought that I didn't care. Heck, even if you don't care that I care, I still care. So, go have a good day, and don't forget to have fun.

-Davey O

Acutely Unaware

Today on my way to work as I was driving the I-15, having only had 4 and a half hours of sleep, a realization hit my stomach like a pound of bricks: "I want to be back at BYU-Hawaii."

I don't know why I feel like this but it is as real as the noon day sun. Perhaps you too have felt this sudden onset sickness. As I have grown older I have realized that the best way to deal with these rogue emotions is to become their master. Harness their power to acheive the things you need to achieve. Use their power to work harder. That is what I am going to do.

Today I will dial twice as many numbers as I usually do (I am in sales and dial outs are a primary performance measurement). Sure, when I am done I will be tired, but when I hit that bed for the first real time this week and just relax...it will be worth it.

One of the things that keeps me going is the thought that in 6 months I will be back in paradise. Yes, back to that distant land that we all once called home. When I return I will have many stories to tell. Many sleepless nights and dramatic moments; concerts and road trips and endless days of work and worry. When I get back I will be a new man.

To all you who are sad I would say this: Remember that you are one step closer to a better tomorrow than you were yesterday. No matter what happens, this can bring you peace.