Strange Relief

It is odd how the things we hope for can leave us feeling better after we've had them. Let me explain this a little bit more. When we want something so badly, and are in anticipation of it's arrival, sometimes we get so strung up that we cannot be ourselves. When the thing comes and goes and is in the past, we can take a clearer look into our own state and our emotions.

Right now, a girl that i know is in a far away country. She came, and she left; and I don't feel as crappy as I thought I would. In fact, I feel strangely confident. Perhaps it is because we left as "just friend?" Perhaps it is because I have a new found freedom. Perhaps it is the fact that I know I will not see her for 2 years now. That is so long. Perhaps I have finally let myself let go.

My job seems easier these days. My social life seems more lively. My future seems more optimistic, now that this enigma from my past has left me alone. Strange, love is.

If my goals and dreams come true I just might be happy here on this mammoth island away from the island. I might learn to prefer it. Only time will tell. Until then, I will blog...and I'll probably blog after that too!